Now what!?

Circumstances acted a fool on me, today.

Today, I stood.

Now what, circumstances?!

You, do NOT run this.

You, do NOT run me.

You, circumstances, shall run from me.

Situations cut up on me, today.

Today, I trusted.

Now what, situations!?

You, do NOT own this.

You, do NOT own me.

You, situations, shall be owned by me.

Now what?!

I am not afraid of you. I laugh at you. You cause me to grow. You force me to fight.

You give me new opportunities to stand, to trust, to show you how much power you actually have over my life:

NONE!

Kick rocks, circumstances and situations! I do not fear you. I welcome the hard lessons I learn from EVERY blow you make, from every chance you take to diminish me.

The ONLY things I lose, in these skirmishes, are my fear and my pride. Those, you may have. I have no need of them.

Now what?!

😎

Cassandra TRIUMPHANT

I CHOOSE…

I choose:

To stand, no matter what.

To TRY, no matter what.

To love, no matter what.

To give my all, no matter what.

To persevere, no matter what.

To laugh, no matter what.

To hope, no matter what.

I choose to:

Trust, God.

Trust, Life.

Trust, my TRY.

Trust, the folks in my life who care for me.

I choose NOT to:

Give up.

Give in.

Turn my back on:

God.

Life.

Faith.

Me.

Love.

Joy.

Hope.

I choose ALWAYS to:

Show up.

Start.

Start, again.

Again!

AGAIN!!

I choose to show up, to the start line, win or lose:

Tomorrow.

And, the next day.

And, the next day.

Until my heart, beats no more, and I can choose no more…

…I CHOOSE!

keep showing up,

Cassandra CHOSEN

#YourLifeMattersToMe

  • Now what!?
    Circumstances acted a fool on me, today. Today, I stood. Now what, circumstances?! You, do NOT run this. You, do NOT run me. You, circumstances, shall run from me. Situations cut up on me, today. Today, I trusted. Now what, situations!? You, do NOT own this. You, do NOT own me. You, situations, shall be … Continue reading Now what!?
  • I CHOOSE…
    I choose: To stand, no matter what. To TRY, no matter what. To love, no matter what. To give my all, no matter what. To persevere, no matter what. To laugh, no matter what. To hope, no matter what. I choose to: Trust, God. Trust, Life. Trust, my TRY. Trust, the folks in my life … Continue reading I CHOOSE…
  • Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
    https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥. Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all. *que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music* I … Continue reading Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
  • A shout out to ALL who care.
    I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses! Sooooooooooooo much: Encouragement. Feedback. Challenges. Love. Care. Truth. Shown and shared! Awesome!! Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart. This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today … Continue reading A shout out to ALL who care.
  • Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
    Today, was too heavy to carry, today. I gave it to God and Life, instead. Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way. Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders. Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again. My burdens, They carried. Both told me to rest and allow THEM … Continue reading Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
  • Waiting for the spatula.
    I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self* I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self* I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl. … Continue reading Waiting for the spatula.
  • Breakfast at midnight Part II
    Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today! Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit. Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self* Circumstances still working … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight Part II
  • Breakfast at midnight.
    I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon! YYAAAAASSSSSSSS! It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers! I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind. Bacon! Eggs! No work tomorrow! Hhmmmmm. Aha! No work tomorrow sounds an awful … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight.
  • Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
    I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute! I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches. Road trip! Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy … Continue reading Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!

Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share

PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥.

Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all.

*que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music*

I should have known, when my microwave decided to bellow sparks and awful smell, that the day had disaster written all over it.

Okay. Okay! We don’t do disaster round here. We stand. We love. We fight. We…..

OMG!!!!!!

DAMMIT!!

Here I was, minding my own business, doing my job, when ALL hell broke loose, in one area, causing me to want to flip out, for the rest of the day.

At the very least, I was tempted to take a bat to the now defunct microwave.

I did not.

I CHOSE to take the high road and keep working.

Thankfully, I am currently working from home so was free to cry, discreetly, whilst doing my job.

Lunch arrives. I decide to be a grown up and take care of some needed things. Should have stayed a child and left grown folk business to grown folk.

Found out some DEVASTATING news and promptly pressed the flip out button.

Completely forgot ALL about standing, trusting God and Life and just adding my TRY to this AWFUL situation that has come back to terrorize me. Again!

It has/had taken years, YEARS!, to deal with this issue. To put it to rest, to FINALLY be able to rest from fighting it and trying to stay positive, in the meantime.

Have you ever had something weigh you soooooooo heavily it was hard to maneuver through life, let alone try to be hopeful and have a positive attitude about it?

I had FINALLY told God and Life I was DONE fighting the thing, waiting for the other shoe to drop, and had snatched the shoes from hovering over my head!

Felt soooooooooo good to be free of THAT particular mountain. I could breathe. I could slay other dragons.

To find this old foe, knocking on my door, once more…*sigh*.

Being the big, strong, woman I am, I rushed and called one of my big bros. Love my bros. They would literally give you the shirt off their backs, if needed.

Called my big bro. Just needed to hear his voice. Such a caring voice. Makes me feel as though I can do anything, BE anything. He is one of my fave role models. I love so deeply, in part, from watching him love others, from having him love ME. He is ALWAYS there for our fam. As is my other hero, Ram. And Mys D. Yall know who you are!

Anyway, I call just to say life was hard. He turned into Superman. Touched my heart. Gave comfort I will NEVER forget. Love you, big bro. You know who you are. ❤

Because of his care, his voice, his love, I was able to collect myself and get back to work. It may or may not be true that I cried all over him. Sorry bro. Yikes.

Upset still, but determined, I go back to work…

WHAT IN THE FRESH HELL!!?!

My work laptop decided to join the microwave and give up the ghost…*sigh*.

Having used my big bro life line, I chose the phone a friend option and dialed my wombie. I proceeded to flip out, on her, and carried on about the unfairness of Life and, dammit, where the hell was God with all this fresh hell busting out every which way.

Thankfully, wombie knew to stand for me and just kept telling me to trust God, that He has got this AND me. Just kept saying TRUST.

TRUST.

TRUST

I text my supe, in mass hysteria, advising “I told yall my laptop needed replacing!!” I was told to pack up the old one and go get a new one.

Turned in my old one. The techies neither transferred a decade’s worth of work, to the new laptop. He didn’t even make sure the new one was working or that I could get into it.

Of course, knowing my disaster day, I ask over and over if I could get in and have all I need to do my work.

Techie: Yea, you good

Me: Are you certain? Another coworker had to make a second trip unable to access their laptop and get going.

Techie: Yea, you good.

Me: I have years worth of files and photos on my old one. Normally they are transferred.

Techie: Yea, we just decided to give you a new one. This old one is too trashed to transfer all your stuff. You will have to start over. You good.

Taking the high road, I high tail it home, trusting God and Life, trusting the process.

Making the best of things, I stop at Popeyes which was on the way back. I use the ride home to enjoy the drive, be thankful for the opportunity to get my fave Popeyes and access to new laptop.

I tried not to focus on the decade of work, files and photos accumulated, now lost, due to someone’s refusing to do their job and transfer my blood, sweat and tears to my new laptop.

Arrived home, determined to stay positive, to start again. Again.

Huffing and puffing, whew, plugging in this, untangling that, wondering where on earth did all this DUST come from after having just vacuumed, plugging this wrong, hollering loudly, sorry neighbors, looking at delish Popeyes growing cold KNOWING I can’t reheat as the damn microwave blew up and took my laptop with which is why I am huffing and puffing under this damn desk trying to hook up a stupid laptop that does NOT have a decade, A DECADE!, of work on it!!

Finally, hooked up, I promptly sign in, get back to work and take a bite out of the still piping hot Popeyes.

NOT!

Not only is my fave chicken ice cold, not only is a decade, A DECADE!, of work is gone. But, I can’t get into the laptop!

I TOLD YOU TO MAKE SURE I COULD GET IN IT!!

I call work. Half cry on my supervisor. Long day yall, cut a sista some slack.

Now, both of us in panic she reaches out to both of our boss to see what needs to happen. Turns out, I will need to return, first thing in the morning. Okay, really?

This reminded me of my attempt to get to the lake last weekend. God and Life had other plans that day.

Turns out, They had other plans for me, today. Seeing as though I can’t work, I popped on some tunes, took out my ice cold Popeyes and had afternoon picnic lunch with God, Life, and GEEZ!

Decided to make the best of things of this mess of things.

I can’t help what the techie would not do, can’t help that this old foe has returned, can’t do a blessed thing about a decade, A DECADE!, of files, work, and love now gone.

I CAN hang out with God and Life.

I CAN remind myself I defeated this foe, before, and WILL defeat him, this situation, this hard road, again. Again!

I start, again. Again!

I stand, again. Again!

I reaffirm my hope, again. Again!

I re rejoice, knowing lost files do not mean lost effort and affect, again. Again!

I look up, reach up To My Hope/Help, again. Again!

I reach out, to you, beloveds, and tell you not to be afraid, don’t give up, don’t give in, even if old foes reappear, again.

CHOOSE to start, again. Again!

The outcome, the ending, the output is not the point. These things are NOT the endgame.

The endgame is your showing up, to the starting line. Just keep showing up. Matters not if you don’t show out. Just show up. At the starting line.

Again.

And, again.

And, again.

You win, beloveds, EVERY time, you make it to the starting line. God and Life WILL take it from there.

Don’t worry about who will win or lose. Don’t waste a thought on prizes that may be doled out. Don’t fret about the pebbles in your shoe, the heat, the lack of supporters, the large crowd of naysayers, non believers and those things and people determined to stop you, to get in your way.

Get to the start line, beloveds. You grow EVERY time you go. You live EVERY time you get there. You inspire others EVERY time you make it to the start line.

Watching you get to the start line, inspires me to keep TRYing, to keep LIVEing, to keep LOVEing, to keep HOPEing.

Yes, you may lose things you may never see again. Yes, you may have to fight old fears and foes. Yes, you may need to cry on someone’s shoulder.

Nevertheless.

However.

We stand.

STILL.

standing with you at the starting line,

Cassandra VICTORIOUS NO MATTER WHAT

#YourLifeMattersToMe

  • Now what!?
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  • I CHOOSE…
    I choose: To stand, no matter what. To TRY, no matter what. To love, no matter what. To give my all, no matter what. To persevere, no matter what. To laugh, no matter what. To hope, no matter what. I choose to: Trust, God. Trust, Life. Trust, my TRY. Trust, the folks in my life … Continue reading I CHOOSE…
  • Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
    https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥. Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all. *que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music* I … Continue reading Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
  • A shout out to ALL who care.
    I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses! Sooooooooooooo much: Encouragement. Feedback. Challenges. Love. Care. Truth. Shown and shared! Awesome!! Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart. This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today … Continue reading A shout out to ALL who care.
  • Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
    Today, was too heavy to carry, today. I gave it to God and Life, instead. Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way. Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders. Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again. My burdens, They carried. Both told me to rest and allow THEM … Continue reading Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
  • Waiting for the spatula.
    I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self* I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self* I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl. … Continue reading Waiting for the spatula.
  • Breakfast at midnight Part II
    Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today! Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit. Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self* Circumstances still working … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight Part II

A shout out to ALL who care.

I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses!

Sooooooooooooo much:

Encouragement.

Feedback.

Challenges.

Love.

Care.

Truth.

Shown and shared!

Awesome!!

Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart.

This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today was tough thinking of him and missing him.

I am grateful to EVERY heart that reached out to share a bit this past little while.

Honored,

Cassandra BLESSED

Today, was too heavy to carry, today.

Today, was too heavy to carry, today.

I gave it to God and Life, instead.

Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way.

Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders.

Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again.

My burdens, They carried.

Both told me to rest and allow THEM to stand.

Told me “We got this”.

Your circumstances, your situations, your burdens, WILL answer to Our Commands.

Whew!!

Today was a llllllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnggg one. Gave the best I had, today. Didn’t seem to carry the day. I gave my all. I gave my TRY.

That’s ALL that was required. I can live with that, today.

Will TRY again, tomorrow.

You do the same.

Be well,

Cassandra STILL HERE

Waiting for the spatula.

I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self*

I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self*

I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl.

I listened to the whisking sound, day dreamed of the scrumptious cake to come.

ALL the while, hovering near, hoping, daring to dream, of the moment when mom would expertly pour the creamy, golden batter into the pan I had proudly been allowed to prepare by coating in flour and EXPERTLY patting the extra flour away…*hugs self*

It was ONLY then that mom would scrape the bowl, with her well worn spatula, leaving just enough batter, on the spatula, for a tantalizing taste of cake.

NOTHING compared with her handing us the spatula, with a smile, as we slowly licked that spatula clean!

Surely, she gave more then the spatula should have held. Why, she scraped EVERY last drop of batter, from the mixing bowl.

The spatula, though…!!💃

I would dance around the room, with said spatula, acting as though I had won an Olympic Gold Medal.

I had won! Chosen to have the spatula. I almost felt bad for he who came in second…*shakes head sadly*. They were left with the scraped clean bowl. Poor dears.

Those memories, those I hold close to my heart. The same way that I am holding on to yesterday, STILL, not wanting to turn loose my ‘spatula’ given me by mom(from heaven), God and Life.

The moments, even the terrifying flying down the mountain moments, have meant so much I can’t turn them loose.

Am licking each and every drop from this day, from these moments, from my heart, from God’s Heart, from Life’s Heartbeat as I can.

Although, I anticipate the coming ‘cake’ with gladness. I am enjoying the NOWness, of these moments. They shall NEVER come again, in this way.

Life is short, beloveds. Enjoy your moments. Relish your ‘spatula’. Enjoy the cake, when it arrives.

UNTIL your ‘cake’ comes:

Live.

Love.

Laugh.

Allow God and Life to Live, Love and Laugh with you.

Keep going.

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Cassandra FULL AND GRATEFUL

  • Now what!?
    Circumstances acted a fool on me, today. Today, I stood. Now what, circumstances?! You, do NOT run this. You, do NOT run me. You, circumstances, shall run from me. Situations cut up on me, today. Today, I trusted. Now what, situations!? You, do NOT own this. You, do NOT own me. You, situations, shall be … Continue reading Now what!?
  • I CHOOSE…
    I choose: To stand, no matter what. To TRY, no matter what. To love, no matter what. To give my all, no matter what. To persevere, no matter what. To laugh, no matter what. To hope, no matter what. I choose to: Trust, God. Trust, Life. Trust, my TRY. Trust, the folks in my life … Continue reading I CHOOSE…
  • Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
    https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥. Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all. *que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music* I … Continue reading Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
  • A shout out to ALL who care.
    I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses! Sooooooooooooo much: Encouragement. Feedback. Challenges. Love. Care. Truth. Shown and shared! Awesome!! Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart. This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today … Continue reading A shout out to ALL who care.
  • Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
    Today, was too heavy to carry, today. I gave it to God and Life, instead. Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way. Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders. Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again. My burdens, They carried. Both told me to rest and allow THEM … Continue reading Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
  • Waiting for the spatula.
    I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self* I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self* I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl. … Continue reading Waiting for the spatula.
  • Breakfast at midnight Part II
    Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today! Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit. Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self* Circumstances still working … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight Part II
  • Breakfast at midnight.
    I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon! YYAAAAASSSSSSSS! It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers! I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind. Bacon! Eggs! No work tomorrow! Hhmmmmm. Aha! No work tomorrow sounds an awful … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight.
  • Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
    I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute! I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches. Road trip! Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy … Continue reading Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
  • Let’s get after it.
    Let’s get after it. Let’s ATTACK and WIN this day! No slinking in the back way, hoping for a good outcome. Naw, we kicking down the front, DEMANDING situations, circumstances, doubt, fear, the enemy and ALL their ilk to bow to our say so, to give way to our hope, to give in to our … Continue reading Let’s get after it.

Breakfast at midnight Part II

Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today!

Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit.

Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self*

Circumstances still working the last nerves. Situations trying to try me. The world forever doing it’s utmost to convince me that MY voice, MY TRY, MY particular personality, has no sway in this world.

HA! Kick rocks, I say back!

I shall:

Eat breakfast at midnight.

Drive through terrifying mountains.

Yield to NO situation, circumstances, the world.

HA! KICK ROCKS!!

I shall:

Be, loved.

Be, free.

Be, ME!

You do the same, wouldja please and thanks?

Your life matters, beloveds.

YOU matter.

Your life was worth the death of a King.

That’s what’s up!!!!😎💃🔥

Keep going.

I go with you.

God and Life goes with and before us all.

Be encouraged.

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Cassandra CARES

  • Now what!?
    Circumstances acted a fool on me, today. Today, I stood. Now what, circumstances?! You, do NOT run this. You, do NOT run me. You, circumstances, shall run from me. Situations cut up on me, today. Today, I trusted. Now what, situations!? You, do NOT own this. You, do NOT own me. You, situations, shall be … Continue reading Now what!?
  • I CHOOSE…
    I choose: To stand, no matter what. To TRY, no matter what. To love, no matter what. To give my all, no matter what. To persevere, no matter what. To laugh, no matter what. To hope, no matter what. I choose to: Trust, God. Trust, Life. Trust, my TRY. Trust, the folks in my life … Continue reading I CHOOSE…
  • Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
    https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥. Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all. *que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music* I … Continue reading Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
  • A shout out to ALL who care.
    I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses! Sooooooooooooo much: Encouragement. Feedback. Challenges. Love. Care. Truth. Shown and shared! Awesome!! Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart. This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today … Continue reading A shout out to ALL who care.
  • Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
    Today, was too heavy to carry, today. I gave it to God and Life, instead. Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way. Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders. Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again. My burdens, They carried. Both told me to rest and allow THEM … Continue reading Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
  • Waiting for the spatula.
    I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self* I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self* I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl. … Continue reading Waiting for the spatula.
  • Breakfast at midnight Part II
    Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today! Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit. Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self* Circumstances still working … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight Part II
  • Breakfast at midnight.
    I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon! YYAAAAASSSSSSSS! It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers! I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind. Bacon! Eggs! No work tomorrow! Hhmmmmm. Aha! No work tomorrow sounds an awful … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight.
  • Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
    I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute! I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches. Road trip! Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy … Continue reading Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
  • Let’s get after it.
    Let’s get after it. Let’s ATTACK and WIN this day! No slinking in the back way, hoping for a good outcome. Naw, we kicking down the front, DEMANDING situations, circumstances, doubt, fear, the enemy and ALL their ilk to bow to our say so, to give way to our hope, to give in to our … Continue reading Let’s get after it.
  • Yikes!
    Much to share. Much, much, much TOO BUSY at work! Yikes!!! Whew!!! Good thing I can STILL tear up heaven praying for us all. Hang in there, beloveds. Remember, you are: Loved. Prayed for. Cherished. Special. Needed. Necessary. Okay. Okay to be okay until you are okay if you are not okay today. Keep moving … Continue reading Yikes!

Breakfast at midnight.

I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon!

YYAAAAASSSSSSSS!

It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers!

I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind.

Bacon!

Eggs!

No work tomorrow!

Hhmmmmm.

Aha!

No work tomorrow sounds an awful lot like BREAKFAST AT MIDNIGHT to me.

BRB…*Cassandra heads for the kitchen, scrambled eggs, makes bacon, pours coffee….*

No time for yakking, beloveds. My bacon is getting cold.

Ponder this as I stuff my face:

The ONLY true limits we have are the limits we place on ourselves. We box ourselves in, close ourselves off, tell ourselves we can only do this and that during this time or with that person.

Or, we are too old, too young, too poor…yada yada. Enough!

Do you, boo. At, midnight. At, noon time. Whatever. Whenever. Do you. BE you.

Time we stop limiting ourselves, don’t you think?

Keep going. I go with you. I root for you.

We got this.

Breakfast at midnight, anyone?😎❤👀

Cassandra SATISFIED

#YourLifeMattersToMe

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  • Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
    I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute! I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches. Road trip! Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy … Continue reading Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!

Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!

I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute!

I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches.

Road trip!

Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy some peace, music and hang out time with God and Life.

We have been having an awful heat wave. The weather has been bad. For weeks. EVERY time I planned to go to the lake, something always came up. I was TIRED of using the heat, as an excuse. I needed to get out.

Last night, I  must admit to being a bit pitiful; alone, listening to coworkers discuss family bbq holiday plans.

I ALLOWED myself to be sad, lonely and pitiful, for a time. I find it sad that society tries to make folks feel sad about feeling, well sad, at times.

Especially, Christian folk. Good night, appears to be a crime to be a Christian with any type of feeling. Another subject for another day.

Anywho, let myself BE:

Lonely.

Lonely.

Lonely!

Woke, next day, and was done being lonely. Went about my afternoon, enjoying my solitude with God and Life. Decided to annoy my wombie and rang her up. Delicious!😎

So much so, I decided to try the lake experience.

*sinister music begins to play in the background. Foreshadowing!!👀*

Snatching up water, snickers bar, purse, keys, adventurous spirit, I hopped in Cherry 🚗, blasted my fave music and headed for beauty, lake-chilling, awesome music and hanging out with God and Life.

Full disclosure: I love mountains. Love, love love looking at them on television and on my scenic calendars. That said, I am absolutely TERRIFIED of mountain road driving. Especially the especially curvy, winding, what the hell is all this fresh hell, type windy roads.

*sinister music is up full blast about now. A terrifying monster have joined said sinister music just waiting for entrance….*sigh*👀

So, of course, the 30 MINUTE DRIVE IS ALL WINDY, TWISTY, WHAT THE FRESH HELL IS ALL THIS TWISTY PRETZEL ON STEROIDS ROADS!!!!

OMG!!!

Geez!!

GEEZ!!

Oh, yea, yall I was introduced to Geez! today. Yall already know me and Yikes! and Egads! are tight.

30 minutes! I forgot to enjoy my music. Who can enjoy music hollering ‘Geez!’ at the top of one’s lungs, anyway!

GEEZ!!

GEEZUS!!!!😱

God: Why don’t you enjoy these beautiful mountains I made for you?

Me: Can’t You see?! I am trying not to die here!!

Yikes!: Yea, we a bit busy here. Egads!

Egads!: What in the fresh hell!!??

GEEZ!: Geez! Don’t folk know how to drive!? OMG! SLOW DOWN!!

Fast forward a horrifying 30 minutes, white knuckled, I pull up to an entrance, one mile from my destination, says Google Maps, and this tiny man, in shorts two sizes too big, rushes up and yells at me:

Tiny man: Hey! You almost went the wrong way! The ranger would give you an $1,800 ticket for going the wrong way!

Me: Sir, I have never been here before. I am not from around here.

Tiny man: I don’t care.

Tiny man storms off. I get ready to head towards the lake, a mile away. Terrified, still, I remind myself I will be seeing the lake, soon. I soooo looked forward to seeing it, in PERSON. I was tired of enjoying life in picture, in dreams.

I wanted, no NEEDED, to see the lake, in person. A reminder that my other dreams would soon be lived out, by me. I wouldn’t have to keep longing for them. Would hold them, in my hands.

Whilst daydreaming and waiting my turn, tiny man came tearing back to my car:

Tiny man: So, you know it costs $5 to enter, don’t you?

Me: I had no idea. That’s fine.

Tiny man: You know we only take cash, don’t you?

Me: I had no idea. I am not from here. I don’t carry cash. Will you accept my credit card?

Tiny man: No. Most folk are like you. They only use cards. You will have to turn around.

Me:🙃💔🤷‍♀️

The next thoughts I had were not age appropriate, I must say.

It would be one thing, to have conquered my fears, and be rewarded with a pretty lake, quiet time and chillaxing.

Nope. ALL I had accomplished was a terrifying ride, only to be turned back, ONE mile, from my destination.

A metaphor for my life, this past little while.

I could have gotten angry with God and Life for not giving me the ‘heads up’. They KNOW my fears. They could have let me know what was around those terrifying bends. Rather, could have let a sista know the terrifying bends were coming, in the first place.

They could have told me to bring some cash.

Why did They remain silent?

To enjoy my terror?

No.

To take satisfaction in another experience falling short of my Hope’s, my expectations, my dreams?

No.

To take glee in me ‘wasting’ an afternoon?

No.

Why then? Will answer after describing the trip back.

OMG THE TRIP BACK!!

GEEZ!: MUST we talk about the trip back! OMG!!!!!

Me: We must…*sigh*

White knuckled, I turn around. This time, I tell myself I am going to do my best to enjoy the mountains, the gorgeous clouds, the sunshine, and return trip home.

I had to do the trip, anyway, may as well make the best of things, of the day.

It’s amazing how peaceful a winding mountain drive can be, minus screams of GEEZ! and OMG!s. I could actually hear the soothing music, enjoyed how the trees swayed this way and that. Seems like the trees were enjoying the music, the sun, the peace along with me and God and Life.

I forgot to be afraid.

I forgot my mad about being ONE mile from a five year’s daydream.

I forgot.

I lived.

Just LIVED.

The scary was no longer scary.

The scary became another precious moment.

A moment I will carry with me for the rest of my days.

Looooong after I have forgotten the initial terror, I will remember the MOMENT:

The drive.

The quiet.

The peace.

The knowledge I had faced more fears and LIVED, anyway.

It was the TRY, you see, God and Life were actually after. The lake was besides the point.

There will be other opportunities, to see the lake. At least, I hope there will be. One never knows. Life happens.

The moral of the tale, I guess, is to TRY. Just TRY. Get on out there. EXPERIENCE life. Don’t just survive it.

Don’t let the threat of ‘heat’ to keep you from getting out there and mixing it up with life.

Will I try again, tomorrow? Who knows.

I DO know, THIS TRY, has given me the confidence, the willingness, the drive to TRY something else.

God and Life had a different path and plan for my afternoon. Did it make mine unimportant? No, just meant they course corrected to another moment, to another journey. I learned more about me. I enjoyed the mountain drive. I enjoyed ME.😎

ALL we need to do, beloveds, is to TRY. That and make sure you have some cash on you, just in case! 😜🤣

Live. Love. Rejoice.

We got this.

God has us all.

I love you,

Cassandra ACCOMPLISHED

#YourLifeMattersToMe

  • Now what!?
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  • I CHOOSE…
    I choose: To stand, no matter what. To TRY, no matter what. To love, no matter what. To give my all, no matter what. To persevere, no matter what. To laugh, no matter what. To hope, no matter what. I choose to: Trust, God. Trust, Life. Trust, my TRY. Trust, the folks in my life … Continue reading I CHOOSE…
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    https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=X0f8bg4XEeI&feature=share PSA: There may be tears, by post end. Skip the end….😥. Hang in there, til the end, and the ride will be worth it. Okay,  maybe not but my vent, er rant, er ahem, positive, uplifting message will have been of benefit to us all. *que sinister, foreboding, what the fresh hell music* I … Continue reading Real talk: Big bros and Popeyes.
  • A shout out to ALL who care.
    I spent a delicious weekend enjoying the different blogs and responses! Sooooooooooooo much: Encouragement. Feedback. Challenges. Love. Care. Truth. Shown and shared! Awesome!! Thanks to ALL who have taken from their moments to reach into my life and touch my heart. This week is anniversary of the passing of one of my big bros. Today … Continue reading A shout out to ALL who care.
  • Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
    Today, was too heavy to carry, today. I gave it to God and Life, instead. Allowed THEM to carry this day, THEIR way. Laid my head upon God and Life’s Shoulders. Asked THEM to bear these burdens, and replace them with peace/joy/love, again. My burdens, They carried. Both told me to rest and allow THEM … Continue reading Today, was too heavy to carry, today.
  • Waiting for the spatula.
    I looooove food. Love it!…*hugs self* I think I love it, more because of watching mom cook. Watching her, learning from her, laughing with her, as she tried chicken, baked awesome pies, prepared mouthwatering cakes!…*hugs self* I especially loved cake baking times. The smells. The sounds of batter being whipped furiously within the mixing bowl. … Continue reading Waiting for the spatula.
  • Breakfast at midnight Part II
    Yesterday was sooooo delicious I could NOT let it end. In fact, it was so delicious I HAD to extend it into today! Just can’t let these moments go. Life is soooooo very short. I am squeezing EVERY moment to it’s limit. Breakfast was so delish, well, just HAD to rinse/repeat…*hugs self* Circumstances still working … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight Part II
  • Breakfast at midnight.
    I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon! YYAAAAASSSSSSSS! It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers! I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind. Bacon! Eggs! No work tomorrow! Hhmmmmm. Aha! No work tomorrow sounds an awful … Continue reading Breakfast at midnight.
  • Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!
    I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute! I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches. Road trip! Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy … Continue reading Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!

Let’s get after it.

Let’s get after it.

Let’s ATTACK and WIN this day!

No slinking in the back way, hoping for a good outcome.

Naw, we kicking down the front, DEMANDING situations, circumstances, doubt, fear, the enemy and ALL their ilk to bow to our say so, to give way to our hope, to give in to our joy, to turn loose our dreams, to say uncle to our enthusiasm.

LET’S GET AFTER IT!!!

NO time for hiding. NO time for giving up. NO time for giving in.

The ONLY thing we giving in to is the KNOWLEDGE we got this.

So, in having got this, how ’bout we go on ‘head and get it, already!

Life is short.

Live it.

Love in it.

Have peace through it.

Hold on to your joy in the midst of it.

Allow folk to love you, and love you some folks within it.

We got this.

God and Life has us all.

Don’t allow this life, this day, to get away from you without experiencing some joy, today. Be sure to get in enough laughs to sustain your heart. Love on yourself. You are NOT alone. Your struggles are NOT yours alone.

You are loved.

You are cared for.

You are prayed for.

This day.

Tomorrow.

So long as I have breath.

I cheer for you.

I walk with you.

walk with me,

Cassandra JOYFUL AND LOVED