Standing fast when your want to does not want to.

1 Corinthians 15:58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

This was a tough weekend. Not going to lie. Whew! I hung in there. Barely. Will take it. 🙂

I kept telling myself to be ‘stedfast’. No matter what. No matter how I was feeling, not feeling, wish I was feeling, wish I was NOT feeling!

That’s the problem with living ‘in the meantime’. Our feelings, our flesh, just don’t want to hear it, at times.

It’s easy, then, to get ALL up in our feelings and want to pack up our toys and go home already!!!

It’s far easier, to live in the sad of the thing, instead of the mad, of the thing.

Much, much easier to allow myself to get annoyed with the wait time, then admit, experience, deal with how damn long Father’s Day weekend was!

Easier to get frustrated, at the length of the journey, then to recognize true and lasting change takes time, effort, TRY, effort, time, effort, TRY, effort, more TRY, more effort, waiting, waiting, waiting, more TRY, more effort. Rinse and Repeat.

Knowing those things, I CHOSE not to give in to the easy. I stayed with the hard. I kept TRYing. I allowed myself the space to sit with the sad of missing my dad.

I ran the dishwasher. I collected the trash. I made sure to eat. Made sure to rest, best as I could.

ALL I can do, all we can do, is to continue to stand fast. No matter what. No matter where. No matter how.

Our circumstances have NOTHING to do with standing, with living, with loving, fully. We either stand, live and love, or we don’t. Simple as that.

God and Life are not at all interested in our excuses. Neither should we be.

I did not want to lose my dad. I did not want to lose my dad. I did not want to change jobs. I did not want to lose friends and coworkers from Covid.

I do not enjoy waiting decades for unfulfilled dreams. I do not enjoy watching friends and loved ones going through things I can’t change for them.

Nevertheless, I stand.

However, I fight on.

Our want to will not always want to.

So what?

Folks who we care about will not always care for us.

So what?

Things we strive for may be a long time in coming or may never come.

So what?

The yes we are longing to hear may always be no.

So what?

Stand.

Standfast!

Be stedfast.

Unmovable.

Real talk: It’s not about your want to, beloveds. It’s about your ‘will you?’

Will you, beloved?

Will you, continue to stand, live, love, give, grow, no matter what, no matter where, no matter why, and no matter who?

Tell your want to that you are going to!

Tell your want to to get after it, then get after it.

Today, may be your day.

Tomorrow, may be your day.

Your day, may never come. The way you thought it would, should or could.

Keep going, beloveds! We almost there. We almost home. If we weren’t situations, circumstances, people, the enemy and all manner of things would not be desperately trying to convince us we will never get there. If this were true, those things would leave us to our helpless and hopeless selves.

HA!

The race is near the end. Keep going, in the meantime. Keep living, in the meantime. Keep loving, in the meantime.

You can do this. You SHALL do this.

As shall I.

standing with you,

Cassandra STRONG

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