The week is coming to the end of the line. Whew!
I have stood, through tears.
I have stood, angry.
I have stood, afraid.
I have stood, disappointed in me.
Nevertheless, I stood.
However, I fly.
Dented, yes. Still, I stand.
In all the standing, falling, anxting, fussing, fretting, doubting, crying, fighting, I have been gathering more tools, strengthening faith muscles, learning how much I love God/Life/Peeps, living instead of surviving life.
I have disappointed myself, forgiven myself, fussed at myself, yelled at myself, cried for myself, loving myself, still.
I am loved, still! Even in these, my failures, God and Life loves me, still.
I am learning to like ALL of me. I am finding I have judged myself harshly. I have demanded hard work, always. I have commanded a positive attitude, always.
I have allowed myself few vacations, fewer moments of just vegging out. There were ALWAYS work to be done.
Since making the decision to get on with the living of life, I have been LIVING.
I am free. No matter where I go. No matter what I do. No matter what. I am free.
I am free to live, laugh, love, dance, praise, sing, NO MATTER WHAT.
Today, I found it impossible to stand. Thankfully, a friend loved me enough to kick me in the hind end and make me stand, again.
Standing, angry, defiant, I chose to use the passion from the anger and turn it into some praise. I blasted the song ‘Alive’, put it on repeat and began to dance.
Angry, at first. Through tears, at first. After the third go around, those tears of anger, doubt and frustration ended up being tears of joy and thanksgiving.
Thanksgiving for yet another opportunity to KNOW I could stand when I knew surely I could not.
I dance, still. I praise, still.
ALL things continue to work for my good. Even the things I bring about through my own arrogance and unbelief.
How great is that!!?
Dance with me. 💃
Keep going. Don’t give up on you. Not yet, beloved.
You got this. I got you. God and Life has us all.
I love you. If you have fallen, it’s okay. You be loved, still.
I dare you. Dare you to stand up. Dare you to click on the link at the top of the page. Dare you to dance/praise when you are having trouble standing.
Jaybird JAMMING 😎