He was there before I knew I needed Him.

The day had started out really well. Fantastic, in fact.

I had ended the evening well: spent some delicious hours hanging out with God, Life and a bit of bible study.

Went to bed on time. Meaning, I was up way too long catching up on my sports programs.

Bounded out of bed to snag coffee: translation – begged and pleaded with the comforter for a few more minutes of sleep before relinquishing the night to its rightful place.

Coffee consumed, breakfast eaten, music blasted (ear buds used, of course), I took up where I left off with my study of Psalm 31.

“How comforting, I told myself”. I was in a good place so was having compassion for poor King David who sure was getting beatdown in this passage. Poor man. Smh.

I thought it super sweet how God had bent down His ear to hear David’s cry.

I thought it particularly poignant when David said:

Psalm 31: 7-10I will be glad and rejoice in thy mercy: for thou hast considered my trouble; thou hast known my soul in adversities; And hast not shut me up into the hand of the enemy: thou hast set my feet in a large room.Have mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am in trouble: mine eye is consumed with grief, yea, my soul and my belly. 10 For my life is spent with grief, and my years with sighing: my strength faileth because of mine iniquity, and my bones are consumed.

I thought it was awfully neat how God was there for David when he was in trouble. Not being in trouble, currently, I figured this was just a nice Bible study for Bible study purposes. Smh. Poor me. I had no clue what the day held in store for me.

About 10 minutes into my first cup of coffee, life circumstances decided to kick me in the face. After I came to, it appeared that all hell and broken loose upon my day. The day turned out to be so upsetting, it apparently alerted my blood pressure who decided to run up as high she could possibly go. I had long since forgotten about Psalm 31.

Upset, frustrated, hurt, I rushed to call my big brother and tell him about my troubles. Of course, being at work, my big brother had no time for me. I couldn’t call my sister as she had things to do until evening.

Upset, frustrated, hurt, wearily picked up my phone to look at a text someone had sent me. These were the exact words of the text:

Isaiah 41:1010 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

This person always knows when I need to hear something. Not just something, but the perfect Scripture.

Here I was, burning up phone lines, trying to find someone to cast my cares upon, when God had already provided His Shoulder, early this morning, long before hell had come looking for me. Knowing I would forget all about standing, in the midst of this sneak attack, God sent a friend to text me that God, indeed, had my back.

it’s quiet now. I have time to reflect upon the day. It’s easy to see now, how I allowed the circumstances to overwhelm me.

I forgot all about my friends, Yikes and Egads.

I forgot to stand upon God’s Word.

I forgot to lean upon God’s character.

Mostly, sadly, I forgot to lean upon God’s Deep and Abiding Love for me.

Had I done those things, I could have spent the day embracing Yikes and Egads and had a great time laughing at all the days missteps and mistakes and what in the fresh hells.

I could have crawled onto God’s lap and told Him all ’bout my troubles.

Thankfully, we can start our day over whenever we like. I’m starting over, right now. As we speak, am fixing to have coffee with God and Life and am going to tell both of them all about my troubles. I am even inviting Yikes and have him share my most ridiculous moments. Egads! Appears Egads wants to come to.

I shall end this day the very same way I began it: a bit of time with God, a few minutes of quiet, and a grateful heart. Thank you, God, for being there for me, before I knew I needed You.

Jaybird GRATEFUL

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